this is the audio the “Guru” released, addressing all the community: teachers, students and even the Ascenders (people that practiced the meditation technique). It was taken down a day later but a lot of people had a chance to hear it. Creepy AF. I enabled the “Download” button so you can maybe FF and hear as you please.
this is copy-paste of an email that was sent to the community, in the middle of shitstorm of dozens of teachers worldwide leaving. “positive manipulation” anyone'?
Hi guys, Jaya here.
If you dont know me, I am part of the Mastery team, living in Spain.
It's been a sad few days to see some of my family leaving TBP, but I know them, I love them and I understand.
I know you are asking questions, why, but to respect their privacy, I can’t give you my version.
We are family, here to love and see the good in each other. A family which is focusing on praise, gratitude and love in the stormy times. Helping each other and holding out hands so we all find our way in the storm. I hope you are making the Stillness more important than ever, trusting in your experience and allowing.
It doesn't help to assume, or to get into gossip. That is an energy which doesn't help each other, ok. So, in times like these, we can take the high road, be bigger versions of love and let go of needing to know or to be right.
When a teacher leaves The Bright Path, they no longer have a spiritual Teacher, a guide. They have decided to do this on their own. That is their choice and is ok, but they can no longer teach.
A teacher of TBP has a spiritual Teacher, which is the pure link to the lineage and Tradition of the Ishayas. Without this Teacher, the link is broken, the lineage is no longer lined up and the person no longer has the privilege and honor to teach others.
Why? Because it is the Teacher/Student relationship which keeps the ego out through surrender, and keeps the Teaching pure.
It is because of this connection with the lineage, we can assure that Ascenders around the world can receive this Teaching in the purest possible form, not just learning the Attitudes as words, but a pure energetic transmission that opens up the path of Waking Up for them.
Every teacher of TBP knows this.
They also know, if they drop/break/leave the Teacher/student relationship then this privilege to pass on the Teaching, in any form, also has stopped.
Why? because the link to the lineage via the Teacher has broken.
That is why it’s such a big deal and beautiful thing and incredible moment when an Ascender asked for a Teacher.
It is so incredible for us to witness as it is their invitation and acknowledge into the Lineage of the Ishayas.
It’s such a celebrated moment for all of us who witness such a sacred blessing.
The vows are the outward massive commitment to this Truth. Anyone who has taken the vows has had their own unique experience of saying those words to the Teacher, in the presence of the Ishayas.
That leaves you too question, so how can someone leave this? Change their mind? Leave the Teacher and TBP?
Like i said earlier, we have to respect other peoples choices. We have to love them, allow them. They have gotten to the place of this decision because of a back story which is their Truth.
In fact, for me, after the sadness has passed, I feel immense love for them. They are incredible people with a passion to help humanity. I’m sure they will shine their love and light in a new and different directions.
I am very open to help you during any times, stormy or calm… and i felt to reach out and share with you at this time. I hope you are getting the love and the support which all Ishayas truly wish for you to have.
You are very loved and you are very important. This path is for all of us to keep growing in kindness and peace.
with love
Jaya
This is the letter I sent to all the community, three weeks after I had been fired by the “Teacher” and two weeks after he released the “audio”. I left it completely unedited.
I didn’t have the chance to say goodbye and end my relationship with you, that opportunity to express felt taken away. I now find it ironic how your last praise to me was about my writing (but also how my writing wasn’t important to the organization).
I was a bit jealous of my colleagues who got to tell you their reasons and open their heart to you for one last time. Then I realize I can still do it. For me, not for you, as you always told us.
And I am sharing this with all fellow Ishayas because if I remember correctly, the marriage we celebrate in the sacredness of our vows is with all of the Ishayas, not just you. We marry every single Ishaya, yet there seems to be an implication that they don´t need to know the reason why their fellow Ishayas leave because it doesn´t concern them. But I believe it does. We dedicate our heart, mind, body and soul not only to you, but to all them. Why wouldn’t this concern them?
I share with all of you, because many of you are asking me to share my truth with everyone. So I apologize to the ones that do not want to know, and please stop reading here if you wish. Content warning: Some topics covered here may trigger memories of abuse and trauma.
Everything I say here is just my experience, perceptions or opinion. It is how I have lived this. And the only validity it has is as a human sharing with other humans what she experienced. I don´t claim I have all the facts. But who does? This is just my experience.
I have heard insinuations from you that people are leaving because they love conspiracy theories. I thought it was a clever move, releasing that audio, and it seemed we would be branded as conspiracy theorists to discredit our clarity, our integrity and sanity. It is so poetic that conspiracy theorists claim lies are used to cover truths, and narratives are changed to distract the audience, yet here we are, and in what it seems to be precisely that. Well, call me a conspiracy theorist if you want. I’d rather be that than dishonest.
I've heard you say, in that famous audio where you used my name and lied to all your students and Ascenders (I wondered if you didn’t read your vows that day. Satya seemed to be absent), that you can't share emails from your students because they are confidential. But I also know you have forwarded emails from your students, too. Especially private emails that spoke about the events the led to you releasing the audio. You have broken the confidentiality of your students.
The last time I saw you, I told you that I had stopped telling you what I saw. Well, that's one reason. It seemed that on several occasions, you would share and use confidential information that created some friction or confusion. Nothing major, only little snippets here and there that could create disharmony between colleagues. If it would ever come up among us we would shrug our shoulders and laugh: "Oh, he doesn’t remember very well. Maybe he didn´t mean that.” Confusion seems to be a common denominator around you. When it happens over and over again? It seems more like a pattern than an innocent slip.
I tried to bring it up several times, but more often than not, you'd shrug it off, say you don't remember, change the subject, ask us to let it go or well, to quote your famous phrase: "I never said that." And the thing is, no one ever doubts you. Why would we? You are the man that is ego free. You are the man who has our best interest in your heart. So, yes, one reason I stopped sharing with you what I saw in the organization, is because I didn't want to get my friends in trouble. I suspect I am not the only one.
I constantly heard there are no secrets in the Ishayas. “Only our ego wants to keep things private.” Yet it seems to only apply to the rest of us.
It's funny how my biggest fear, as you know, was being vanished or exiled, was you telling me to leave. We discussed this many times. And you did it - and you could probably pin it on God to avoid accountability. I felt that you used my biggest, deepest fear against me. It has taken me three weeks to put myself together again, and maybe it will take more. I don't care how long. I am not alone.
You have hurt me in ways I cannot understand yet. I felt destroyed. Don't worry I don't feel special, I am not the only one. Where is all the love? You speak about unconditional love but it seems it only applies to people within the organization. People you held in such high esteem, praising their clarity and experience, suddenly, the moment they step out of your organization, your speech about them changes. Why is that?
I thought you were so present and so still, never missing anyone that has left or ever referring to them again. Now I only see a man whose empathy doesn’t appear to exist. There is a word for that.
You will forgive my long email, but you know me, I usually have a lot to say.
Do the people around you not see how the moment you lose your perceived power over someone, you start the process of discarding them? Like you did to me, to Satta, to Sutratman, to Maghavat, Patañjali, Brighu? And speaking of Brighu, what happened with Soma? Does your house “not know" about why she left either? I believe they do know, at least Jaya did. And by the way she also told me she believed me when I told her what you did to me.
Allegedly there are people that have come forward with sexual misbehavior stories within this organization, and are usually not believed or the perpetrator keeps teaching. I am not surprised more people don´t want to come forward and speak up. But I really wish they did. I don’t know if this is true, but it is what I heard in the past two weeks.
But see, I also didn’t have a choice in coming forward, when you made an audio and misinformed the whole community of this. So, I had to talk and correct the version you gave. It is the natural response. I have taken the time to respond to every single phone call and share with them. “When in doubt, do the right thing” – you gave us this homework recently.
In this case, the right thing was telling the truth.
At this point maybe my Ishaya colleagues are thinking "wow, she is angry", "oh, she is in drama." I do not care. We have been subtly trained to ignore reality. To look away and focus on the rainbows. We have been taught to close our eyes and our ears and pretend everything is fine.
I have seen what that has done to your roommates and their inability to remain authentic in a crisis. Ignoring reality is not the high behavior I aspire to. When la-la-land came crumbling down, people's true colors appeared. It has broken my heart so many times these last weeks.
I hope that those who used to be my friends realize one day that they are protecting the guru, and not the teaching. They are good people, with good hearts.
You should see them when you and Priya leave for your Barcelona trips. They look happier, they breathe, they connect, they look free. I was surprised they both made contact with me a couple of days after you dropped me. Then I realized you probably had left the house and they were coming back to themselves. Don't worry, they both implied our friendship was over. It's so 90's to break a relationship with people just because they leave your business. Thank God most Ishayas aren't like that anymore.
"Do as I say, not as I do." I don´t know who said that, but wow.
More and more I began seeing this in you. You tell us to be kind, but you aren't kind. You tell us to praise yet a lot of us justify you and excuse why you don't praise. You trained us well to immediately feel the problem is within us when we feel undervalued or wishing for some gratitude. "What part of us needs it"? That is called gaslighting.
We have been trained to ignore our intuition or respect the signals of our bodies. Why would a job within a conscious organization not be based on praise, gratitude, and love? For years we have masqueraded slavery and abuse for service. More often than not, people that come to work for the business, arrive with so much passion,with a desire to serve, they feel special and honored trying to give to this teaching. More often than not, the illusion shatters quickly, the wings are clipped and we end up just doing what we are told, for years. Passion is allowed, but only to projects that won´t compete with your business. Otherwise, “we are off” or “it is probably not coming from a pure place”.
In my case, I kept giving and serving and there came a point when I didn’t know why I kept doing it. No one gets a fair wage (if they are lucky to get one at all), but it seems to be expected that we give all our time to this, in the name of service, in the name of God and surrender. What a master manipulative way of having workers for free. No one has real autonomy. Some of us excused it with "Oh well, this is how this organization works". I used to feel I was the one in the wrong, but now I know that it was OK to not conform with all this.
I have felt sick to my stomach for my part in this, and for that I deeply apologize to all my Ishaya family. I complied and protected you, I saw lies, incongruencies and censorship and I kept quiet. I learned about your behavioral patterns and I concealed it even from my partner. (I didn’t want to dent his relationship with you, you see? We are very well trained). I stopped standing up for my truth and the right treatment to others until I reached a point where I didn’t know who I was anymore.
I arrived to my Mastery with a strong sense of self, speaking up for anything I saw. After giving my trust and commitment to you, I slowly stopped trusting my own self. What a disaster that is. At the end of this long run, I couldn’t talk without bursting into tears. I was afraid to say what I see because there is a culture that doesn’t allow our own perceptions. Only agreeing with you seems to be considered clarity.
People ask me why you fired me from my job. I don´t know what to tell them because you and I know that I didn´t do anything to deserve it. People keep trying to use logic to understand your actions, yet it is not in logic where we will find it. You told me I wasn't a team player and not willing to serve. I asked my team mates, not one seems to agree. You were baffled that I was trying to honor the part-time nature of my job and take care of the hours I dedicate to this, "that's fascinating.” you said. “How many hours of your precious time are we worth?" I don´t know any other business where they hire you for part time, pay you less than minimum wage and they expect from you to work full time. I asked you for examples and you gave me examples of 8 years ago.
You didn´t really have a reason to fire me from the business. I felt that you knew I was finally out of your pocket and mind games, and you needed to get rid of me. Two weeks before you fired me, I was teaching a webinar with Narain in the online retreat. You put me there. So how can you explain this? It's embarrassing to tell people the reasons I was given, because they sound so ridiculous. "You express preferences on what you want to do." --- How is that wrong in a healthy world? You sat there while Priya told me “You think you are so important Maharani, but the truth is you are not important at all (…) No one even knows what you do.” In that moment, I felt you even enjoyed that. The horrible things that have been said in the name of reflection.
We are told to follow our joy and protect our peace. That seems to apply eveywhere unless you are working for this organization. Then you do as you are told. No preferences allowed.
It's an incredible thing to claim you are open to your Universe and setting up your Universe only with people who agree with you. Foolproof control for tyranny.
Why is it that reflections towards you or your house are always "off"? Are considered "attacks"? Criticism? Even from the people you announced to the world how clear and still they were? It was easy to justify when one person left that they've lost their marbles or made something more important than their desire for God. How are you explaining 75+ teachers, with more leaving as I type this, walking away? You know well they aren't walking away from God, from the Teaching. You know well they are walking away from you because they no longer recognize the Teacher in you.
"Oh well, he is human, too. He is not perfect" --That's another excuse I’ve given to myself, and heard over and over again from others. True, you are human. But I don´t seee how someone anchored in God will lack integrity and accountability for their actions.
Very cleverly sometimes you have come out to "apologize". But you don’t seem to make youself accountable for your actions. You apologize for other people's perceptions (like mine, apparently), or you send audios to "clarify a misperception the teachers had” (like when you spoke ill about Guayrapa and that got reflected back). But you don’t apologize for what you did.
In your eyes, you don’t seem to recognize that you do anything wrong, and that is a very dangerous thing for a leader. Not dangerous for you, dangerous for the people you lead. So yes, you are human, but in that humanity some of your values have proven to be very low.
A lot of people think that you love them. I know I did too. I know I felt you would never turn on me. I felt you used my hunger and desire for God to create a little soldier that would do anything for this teaching. It took me a long time to recognize I was serving you and not God. My abandonment issues had me constantly trying to get your approval and your love. And you are a master at giving intermittent love. That keeps us all working harder and giving bigger, just for a cookie.
It is not all your fault. It’s our fault too for not seeing the toxic dynamic that exists in the heart of this organization.
Love doesn’t discard when someone has different views, love doesn't belittle when they decide to leave.
The One is not this organization, and you don’t seem to get it. From day one we are played on the fear of losing God and letting our ego win if we ever step out. We are programmed to think that you are the divine connecion to the lineage and we will be nothing if we leave. The fear I’ve heard over and over again from teachers that are leaving, scared to their core that they will lose God.
God is here, God cannot leave us, God is us, and certainly God doesn't need intermediaries. How arrogant that you have created a culture where people's experience of Truth exists only within your domains.
Your organization is only that. An organization, a structure. Not a very efficient one or a healthy one, to my eyes. You teach us God is abundant but have you applied that to your business model?
More often than not, you refer to the organization as if it was the teaching itself. No, it is not.
Now, let’s talk about the big elephant in the room, shall we?
Listening to your audio made me feel like I had Tourette’s syndrome for the amount of times I had to yell “Bullshit.” I heard you lie to all your students, repeatedly. How do the vows mean nothing to you? Where is the sacredness of the relationship you say you honor, when in the same audio you are lying to them?
My heart was breaking, once more.
You said no one in your house knew. Manyu and Jaya did. You said you only heard it for the first time after I left the organization. Double lie: you heard it two days before I left, and I didn’t actually leave the organization, you dropped me. You said you value the confidentiality of your students and in the next sentences you are publicizing my anxiety and pain. Which by the way, yes, you helped me a lot. We talked a lot and I am grateful for that. I am grateful you told me to not be scared to look into my past and heal it. Inevitably, that led me to look into my present. So, thank you. But that does not excuse the rest of your behavior.
Years ago, I was complaining to you about relationship issues. I told you all that was wrong. Then I told you "oh, but when it's nice, it is really nice." You know what you told me? "That's what abused women say." Funny that. I found myself over and over justifying your actions in the same way. “Oh, but when he is nice, he is really nice.”
Saraswati already showed many of these facts. How convenient of you to distract everyone’s attention to your new shiny improved TBP. How convenient to change the narrative so everyone forgets that you actually had been exposed for your lies and that your story was crumbling. "Hey guys, forget about that email, look over here!”, you seem to say. It won´t work anymore. How smart that you announced you are stepping down when you actually aren't, you stepped yourself up.
Let's go back to the audio.
You spoke about my perception as if you knew it. I wonder who fed you information because you certainly did not get it from me.
You spoke about Arizona as if you knew what happened. You didn't. You couldn´t. You were too drunk to remember. You said we had dinner, we didn't. We couldn´t. We had to take you back to the hotel because you were so drunk. I´d like to tell the teachers to ask Manyu, but I know so far he will protect you and not the truth. You said we were playing, we weren´t. Manyu didn’t separate us because we were being too loud and competitive. He separated us because he could see you were hurting me. The people in the restaurant didn’t notice because we were too loud. They noticed because of how you were being with me.
A woman followed me into the bathroom (when I went in to cry) and asked me if that guy (you), was molesting me and if I needed help. So, no, it wasn't JUST my perception. Manyu knows this, he knows all of this. We spoke at length after he had to put you to bed at the hotel. He also knows about Barcelona. I told him then. Strangely, now he had forgotten about the woman in the bathroom and the Barcelona incident.
You gave a beautiful snippet about the mixing of pills and whisky. You always say your memory isn’t so great so let me help you: to my knowledge, you were not on medication in either of these events. Both events were before you attended the doctors and got treatment. Barcelona was in September 2017 and Arizona was in April 2018. It wasn’t until June 2018 that you got treatment.
In Arizona you had three double whiskies within one hour. It is quite possible that your health and heart were already compromised and the alcohol hit you more than usual. But please don´t pretend you only liked one whisky here and there. Some of us know that isn't true. I was there. I drank too. It was fun to be part of the inner circle, I felt special.
You made up a story about Barcelona, too. I wondered why in your audio you encourage teachers with questions to talk to Manyu. Why didn’t you encourage them to talk to Satta? Is it because perhaps she would actually tell the truth?
No, we weren´t shopping and you got tired waiting for us. Your story is not accurate. We had pre-drinks, then dinner, and then you wanted to drink more after dinner. Again, you drank heavily before dinner. You yelled at me that I wasn't willing to translate as requested. I guess six hours of live translation a day with only one day of rest was not good enough for you. You started getting obnoxious and calling us things in the restaurant. I was so confused, as I had never seen that side of you. When we went back to the hotel terrace, you started grabbing my arms and hands and weren’t letting go, my ring remained marked in my hands until the next morning. You kept trying to pull me towards you, and kept repeating the words "C'mon, c'mon" in a tone no woman wants to hear from their teacher/boss. You kept trying to kiss my cheeks and pulling my head towards you.
You call it whatever you want, but I know what it was.
Satta and I stood up and left. We hid behind a wall just to make sure you actually left to go back to your room. The next morning when I asked you to talk about this translation thing, you told me you didn’t remember anything from the night before. So how on Earth were you talking about this in the audio to your students when you don´t remember?
For days, Satta and I would go for walks debating if we tell you or not. We came up with excuses for you, trying to make sense of this. When we decided to tell you, the energy left our bodies. We interpreted it as "letting it go", let's not pick up the past again. You trained us well.
Days later, my father asked if I could go with him to Madrid for a couple of days. You sent Priya to tell me that I had already had fun in Barcelona and I wasn´t allowed to go spend time with my father who was in Mont-ral attending a retreat. I would’t call Barcelona fun. I cried for days. My father couldn’t understand why I was so stressed if I worked in a "happy, conscious environment." I didn´t tell him either. He would have taken me out of there immediately and I still believed I was making the Teaching more important than anything.
But when you find yourself making excuses and concealing information from your family and loved ones, something must not be right.
And contrary to what Jaya accused me of, no, I never, ever went to Barcelona with you again. I never had one drink with you alone again. And I never again took your word when you said you value the safety of women and take sexual advances really seriously. She also accused me of flirting with you and dressing provocatively for you, so I could remain close to you. One of my very best friends, who two days before had cried on my shoulder and apologized for what you did to me, turned on me sending me these horrible messages. That is the power that you have over her. No, I didn’t flirt with you nor did I dress for you. How arrogant is that? I always enjoyed our chats and your wit, and I saw you as my Teacher, a really fun one, I saw you as the person I could trust the most. Why she thinks that about me speaks more about the power you have over her than it does of me.
It is really concerning that now you are appointing her to take students because she is ego free. Either you don´t see clearly, which is highly concerning, or you are choosing to ignore what clearly doesn’t come from a conscious place, which is even more concerning.
Up until a few weeks ago only three people in the world knew about these events. One of them being Manyu who learned about this when the Arizona event happened. I never told anyone, I didn´t want to "mess with their perception of their teacher", my partner included. Only recently I saw how I was protecting you, over myself. It wasn’t only after you fired me that everything came up to the surface for me.
Only recently I opened my eyes to the shame that I experience for having played a role in serving you and the organization, while dishonoring my vows and my commitment to ALL ishayas. Because I loved you, and I wanted you to be the real thing. And for that I apologize deeply to anyone I might´ve hurt.
So many people have left because of the psychological damage they experienced. I used to laugh at them calling them victims. Now I apologize to them. You changed the narrative and now said you never told us we didn´t need other tools. But you did. You mocked psychotherapy and told us we didn’t need therapy.
And again, you didn’t apologized for your ignorance, you just changed the narrative.
Thank God for therapy. Thank God for showing me that there is a difference between not being addicted to the past and just shoving the past under a rug, hoping for it not come back. Healing my past traumas allowed me to see that I was involved in such a toxic relationship. I thought it was the most beautiful of them all. I felt so lucky. I got to be so close to the most conscious person on the planet. It was that love and trust I had in you that didn´t allow me to see when the wheels turned, and I was becoming one of your targets. I am reading a book on Covert Narcissism. It is really good. Maybe your roomates should read it. It has opened my eyes.
And speaking of which, I wonder if you at least have told Silencio the whole truth so they know what they are protecting? Or did you lie to them too? They are good, honest people that serve you all day and night. They deserve at least to know that they are complicit in this. They deserve to know they turned their backs on me for something you actually did do. I love them so much.
And it was all the time I spent with you that allowed me to meet in person so many of my Ishaya family. That allowed me to connect with them. They know me. The last email I ever sent to you I told you I kept receiving messages from the Ascenders and teachers praising me for being so honest and real. I told you I didn´t know why God was making sure I heard that. Now I know.
Despite what you say, the people that know me, know I am truthful, know I say things as they are, or at least I try to. They also know I was completely committed to this Teaching and to serving the organization, despite what you told me. I have been overwhelmed at the amount of love and support coming my way, when I thought I was going to be all alone in this. They know I am good in my heart. So many people know your audio was off. Let’s not even go to why you felt you had the right to talk about me in a platform where you had already kicked me out of and closed all my avenues to express myself. You denied my right to reply. And lied about the whole thing. Constantly.
Why, after receiving my fiance’s email you couldn’t simply call us and talk about this, I will never understand. The first response we got from you was you dropping as a student the next day, via text message.
That message was one of the biggest shocks of my life. I was frozen. I didn´t understand reality. Everything I have lived for and given my life, heart, mind, body and soul to had been taken away from me with one flimsy text message. You made sure to let me know you had the power. And I thank you for that, I thank you for firing me because I may have never left. My commitment to this was so big that I don’t think I would have left.
But you broke the relationship with a student for a personal reason. How that alone doesn’t revoke your position is beyond me. And if you didn´t, if you are moved by God’s will, was all the shaming necessary?
And God graced me with having the three people I love the most around me when you heartlessly texted me. To give you some credit, you did say "I love you very much". "I love you very much, but I no longer consider you a student or a teacher". How is that loving? How is you hearing that you hurt me on two occasions and your next action being exiling me from the center of my life is called love? That is not the love I know, or I want.
It is puzzling that you never considered talking to me. But again, logic doesn’t seem to play a part here. You and I and some members of your house know I am not the only person you have touched and called derogatory names to in a drunken night. You know you didn’t apologize to them either. And if you didn´t know, you do now. They know you are lying and they are complicit with you. And now you are asking them to take students.
Last year you gave a zoom call to address an email that came out about you. I translated for you. I caught you in a couple of lies and didn’t say anything. And I apologize to my Ishaya family for that, too.
"It didn´t happen to me". Some people have told me this. "I am sorry it happened to you, but it didn´t happen to me." That's that same thing I told myself many times. I would hear stories and brushed any responsibility by stating that it wasn’t my direct experience of you. And even when you did it to me, I still found ways to justify you. In this collective of people these things happen to all of us. You are meant to help us cross the veil of ignorance.
It is not right what you have done. It is not right that we concealed the truth. It is not right that your house controls the narrative, and it is not transparent with the rest of the Teachers about why people leave or how many are leaving . It is not right that you use your power to manipulate. It is not right that you lie to your students. It is not right that you do not take responsibility for making sexual advances on me. It is not right that you do not take responsibilty for making sexual advances on others. It is not right that you have indeed heard of teachers misbehaviours and done little about it. It is not right that we didn´t confront you. It is not right to change the narrative and stop responding to questions. It is not right to accuse the community of gossiping when their lives are also impacted by this, and information is been controlled. It is not right to censor the Ascenders and delete the messages of anyone that dares to speak up "against" you. It is not right to keep teachers in the dark. It is not right that you are dishonoring your vows. It is not right how you treat some people.
I truly wish you healing and forgiveness. I actually hope you get help.
Maybe you think your students have no right to enquire about this but the very nature of your role should urge them to question the integrity of your actions. After all, we gave our entire life to this, we vow to surrender our minds, our bodies, our souls for eternity and we are supposed to blindly trust you? The moment we are asked to not question things and have blind faith in you, feels very much how the church behaves, no?
And it is because of all this that I feel everyone I married deserves to know my perception. It is the most important commitment of our lives, and they should be able to ask questions. It is not gossip. It is common sense. Stop underestimating the clarity and intuition of your teachers.
God is everywhere. This organization doesn’t own the access to the Silence. Stop shaming people when they are only following their heart.
I couldn´t keep quiet in good conscience. That would mean I am still complying with you. I have had countless messages asking me to tell my truth, to speak up, telling me that they - the Ishayas - have a right to know. And you know what? I agree. They do. And it is not up to me to tell them what they should and shouldn't know. It is not up to me to think for them. How is that empowering? How is that leading them to trust God within?
I don’t want anyone else to be harmed. Some of the people I love the most are still walking your way. And they are pure souls. They are also incorruptible so don´t expect them to become blind for you. They are true guardians of this Teaching and I am sure they are exactly where they need to be.
I love you very much, but I no longer recognize the Teacher in you.
Truth wins. Love wins.
I have no choice in this, either. I woke up this morning and my hands needed to start typing. God is moving through all of us. There is a big wall of fear I need to transcend in order to send this. But I surrendered to the Will of God and the healing of humanity and I cannot ignore my part in this.
I stayed quiet for too long and for this, I apologize to all of you.
I am sorry for keeping quiet for too long, I am sorry for concealing the lies, I am sorry for not standing for everyone's right to know, I am sorry for serving the guru and following him blindly against my own intuition. I am sorry that I didn´t have the strength before to recognize that what he did was wrong, and that I was helping the rottenness perpetuate.
This Teaching is everything to me, love and truth is everything to me. This is the goodbye email I never got to send.
To God in all of you,
Maharani
PS: This email was NOT written with the intention to be shared with Ascenders or the public. I would appreciate it if you can honor that, please.